There are many things that we can fear in life... and it's true that reality can be excrutiating. But something I've realized that I am most tempted to fear is not specific situations in life, but rather I fear that I will be left in a state of confusion and indecision. It's very possible that I might fear this more frequently than anything else in life. I worry that God will place options before me, and then will say "Well, make a choice."....and I'll be confused, with no clear direction or feeling about where I should go.
This really makes absolutely no sense because nothing in my past reflects this happening...I've always been given directions/inclinations/hearts desires that helped me know what decision I needed to make when I needed to make it. With this kind of track record...why IS it that I fear this? At the very root of it, I know it's a lack of trust in God's abundance and goodness. It stems from a doubt that he does indeed have a plan and that the plan is good. It's a fear that I will be left on my own to figure life out. This is bad, bad, bad.
So I've made a decision in my decision making...when making life choices (small or large) I will choose what most leads to abundant freedom. I believe God is a God of abundance. His plan is not 75% good - rather, it far exceeds expectations every time. I also believe he is a God who wants me to be free. I need to make choices that lead to freedom in my heart and soul. In considering these parameters, I certainly know that detemining what is abundant and free MUST involve more than the immediate...I'm not talking about abundance or freedom for THIS moment...in that case I would quit my job every time it bogged me down and didn't meet my expectations. No, instead, this is abundance and freedom in a place of long-term consideration...a place of wisdom and discernment.
I, once again, surrender myself today to God's power in living a life free of fear...to walking more lightly...to living more freely.
Abundant Life.
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